I finally have an appointment with a new psych doc tomorrow. But I am scared to death to talk to him. I have been diagnosed with Major Depressive Disorder and that does seem to fit me. But I am scared to talk to this doctor. I have been told he is very thorough and usually the first appointment takes 2 hours. My reason for being scared is that I am afraid he will find out how down I really am. I don't want to be admitted to the hospital again but I am afraid if he sees how down I am, he will insist. I try so hard not to cry at these appointments but I cant help it. All I ever want to do is cry. I am not suicidal at the moment, but I could care less if I got sick and died.

Do I be totally honest with this new doctor at tomorrows appointment and take a chance of getting admitted or lie and continue being this depressed?? Please someone give me some advice.