I know I better off without these shallow people in my life. My head gets it. But I can't help but miss that whole thing.

I have tried to make new friends. And I think I verbally vomit out my whole life so I will scare them off and not really get close to them or they don't want to get close to me. Also if they know everything about me upfront then they can't hurt me with it later. I think that's it anyway.