Okay...so i don't know where to begin...
To be honest...i dont want to live. There are extremely short bursts of happiness in my life but those are followed by extreme numbness/sadness/anger. I don't want to live because life has no more meaning to me...i used to love going to school and drawing...and a lot of stuff. Now i just want to sleep or stare at things blankly. I get bored easily now...and it's harder to do my work. I act all happy around other people but surely and slowly the act is dying out. Things i used to get excited about barely hold my attention for more than a few seconds. I'm obese(by medical factors) and i cant do sports well at all. I feel as if everyone hates me and i mess up everything. If i say something i get teased or yelled at...if i dont i still get hurt. I constantly think of killing myself and i know i should get help but...i cant. I dont know how to obtain my medical card from my mom(im scared of her)...and i wont be the same once im on the medication...