For me I'm irritable, have intense insomnia that leaves me exhausted yet better than if I get any sleep for I awaken suicidal. Overall my mood is depressed with such high anxiety I can not make any decisions or focus on anything to carry it though to completion. The insomnia can lead to hallucinations and waking dreams. It's hard to be still but I have no energy to accomplish anything. In short, it's hell.
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Nammu
…Beyond a wholesome discipline, be gentle with yourself. You are a child of the universe no less than the trees and the stars; you have a right to be here. …...
Desiderata Max Ehrmann
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