I am sorry, MKAC. That must have really hurt and I can only imagine how it made you feel. I am sorry you are struggling so much in your RL and this must just feel like the tip of the iceberg to make the emotions flood over.
I just want to offer you a virtual hug and much love from here and tell you I am sorry you feel so bad. You were so kind and sweet to me the other day, you don't deserve to struggle so much.

Much much Love,
Amelia