Depression has been a dear friend of mine for years. Specifically MDD. And I have this nasty habit of getting so depressed that I start thinking the bad thoughts. Thoughts of wanting to kill myself.
Those thoughts that have caused two of my friends to leave this earth before their time.

Aaahhhhh! This pit of sadness is so much more unbearable than simple words can describe.
I already had a major depressive episode 4 months ago so I can't go back to the hospital so soon. And I can't miss any school right now because I need to graduate. I promised myself I would graduate. And besides, what kind of a dweeb drops out with only one month left? If I leave now, even just to go to the hospital, then I won't be able to graduate.

This horrific pit of depression is sucking the life out of me. Literally.
I just, don't know what to do anymore. I feel like there is no way out.