Many people have told me in the past
i cut for attention.

and now i'm starting to agree with them.

i've been cutting a good four years, i started after i was raped by three guys in a park.
everyone didn't believe me
and so nothing was done about it

many other things happened before and after that.
i've read some people's issues on here
and they seem so muh worse than mine.
i feel pathetic for cutting, yet i don't seem to be able to stop.

it is my release, and i don't see why people will understand that.
i have a very large trust issue and i don't seem to be able to open up easily.
only when i'm at my lowest or i'm being forced into it.

i recently took an overdose, and again i've had no help since. i was released from hospital and sent home with nothing.

i need people to help me, yet i can't ask for it. the words are there on the tip of my tongue yet they never seem to leave my mouth.
which brings me back to my original point.
maybe i am doing this for attention.