I was also worried about medication. i resisted it for a very long time. Years in fact. I tried every other Psychological therapy available first. I was afraid the meds would change me, that I would lose all those things that made me me, that it would flatten me out and make me numb. That didn't happen. It has not been all kittens and rainbows my psychiatrists and I had to test a couple of drugs first before we found the right combo and we are still working out some kinks.

The important thing is that I told him what I could and could not live live with ( I cannot tolerate a loss of cognitive function) and he works around me. I am vocal about what works and what doesn't and he adjust my dosage and persciptions accordingly.

Medication can really help if you feel like there is no place else to go. It can give you breathing room to find a different persoective.