Hello again, after the fight I wrote about in the first post, I considered moving out. I wasn't going to break up with him, but I felt that maybe taking a step back could help us to move forward. I realize that moving out is a big step backward. When I discussed the idea with my boyfriend a couple of days later (today) he immediately responded by telling me that if I moved out we might as well call it quits. He claimed that if I moved out it would make things worse. When I tried explaining my reasoning to him I felt like he was shutting me out and letting me speak for the sake of letting me speak. I don't want to take the risk in case he seriously will break up with me if I move out.

After leaving the topic lay and not arguing with him anymore, he confronted me later and asked something along the lines of (and I'm not paraphrasing to making it sound like I want, I just can't remember his question verbatim and don't want to say that it was his exact words) "Is there something wrong? You've been kind of depressed since I got home." He was indeed away for a day and a night. I told him out right that I was stressed from thinking about how to make our relationship better and the pressure of graduating next month. He told me that my happiness affects his happiness. I understand completely, but I told him that his day shouldn't be ruined just because I'm having a bad day. I told him that I understood. I get a little sad if I notice that he's sad and ask him, too, what's wrong; but he needs to understand that I'm stressed. When he talks to me I make sure to answer him and tell him what I can. I'll do my best to think of things to talk about too. When I'm stressed or depressed I admit that I don't talk as much as I do when I'm happy, but most people are like that, right? I even went out and bought him dinner when I was out even though he didn't want to go with me. When I got home I gave him his food and asked him if he was going to be on the computer for a while. He told me that he wasn't, but he ended up sitting in front of his computer for a couple of hours instead of joining me in the living room.

Anyway, I'm just tired of not being heard. I'm sure he could say the same about me, but I feel like he is very stuck on his own opinions and is very close-minded when I try to give him my perspective. I've come to the revelation that I don't have to make it my mission to make him understand my side every time, but it's very frustrating when I feel like he's not even listening.