Yeah they are the same, im used to getting hugs from her every time i see her too and i guess its just really hard for me to see her leave for the summer. We've spend so much time together its crazy haha makes me sad just thinking about it that shes leaving the state. I just dont know why this is affecting me emotionally so much more then when she left to go to Spain for a couple of years. We skyped from time to time during that period when she was out of the country. I wasnt so emotionally broken then, but now im just a wreck. I guess its because i have feelings for her more now.