I've been friends with this girl for about 8 years. We used to do everything together, and now I see her maybe once every few months. At 23 I should be hanging out a lot of the time but it's always me alone. She's the only person I have to talk to, but talking to her about anything real has gotten me into trouble. I told her that I wished I was dead and her boyfriend found out, and refused to meet me. Of course 8 years means nothing compared to random guys she's meeting on the internet. She makes me feel like I'm not even worth caring about. She thinks its stupid that I'm so upset that her boyfriend was mean to me, but I've told her that I'm afraid that people are judging me, then she's the one who told me he wouldn't meet me. It's almost like she wanted to hurt me. I can't help but go on facebook, then in see pictures of him and I feel completely worthless. She's always talking about how an amazing person he is, but in my opinion an amazing person wouldn't treat anyone like that, much less your best friend. I just don't know what to do. I know that every time i see her i just feel more and more worthless. She's one of the main reasons I wish that I was dead. I feel like I should just walk away from something so toxic to me but she's my only friend. I just feel like if I was worth loving then I would actually have friends, and that the ones i do have wouldn't just blow me off and make me feel like complete crap. I could really use some advice