Hi. Wow. You CAN change how your brain thinks, though. I have a great book Your body believes every word you say. And it is truly how your mind works (kinda the brain for dummies) and how what we think and the way we think CHANGES everything!

The physicists are proving that also with quantum physics and quantum mechanics...

so you can begin right now by beginningto think that, yes, at least sometime... you will change... you can change... when you're ready you can and will or words to that effect!

But low self-esteem is what it sounds like you are describing. It's caused by poor parenting ... from gee, ppl who don't parent well?

But you can be better now.

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