Yeah, Leah, I have been a bit resentful in the past about paying for sessions that deal with nothing except the fact that he made a mistake. He acknowledges his mistakes, and we discuss them and it's great to be heard and validated, but at the same time, I think that there should be an offer of a discount or something. LOL.

The situation has been really complicated in terms of money, I suppose. When I got this insurance, the depression was a preexisting condition and my policy excluded coverage for preexisting conditions. Period. End of story. No matter how long we kept the policy, coverage for preexisting conditions never kicked in. My MIL offered to pay for my therapy out of a trust fund because she was so worried about me. However, her condition was that I saw HER T. So I did and it turned out well.

After Obamacare was implemented, insurance companies are no longer allowed to exclude coverage for preexisting conditions, and I asked T if he took insurance and he said no, except for one company. As I said, I assumed it was not my company because it is the weird company basically only used by desperate, self-employed people. Then, my MIL and my T had a falling out, and she changed Ts. I have met her new T, who is a total sycophant and tells my MIL exactly what she wants to hear, and the new T has been telling my MIL how awful my T is. So my MIL no longer wants to pay for me to see him.

I cannot tell you all how much I appreciate the support. I do know the situation is complicated for everyone and complicated by my MIL and my feelings about her and about things are going between the two of us. I am SO grateful to her because I was truly in deep emotional trouble before I started seeing my T. Without her support, both emotional and financial, I probably would not be here now. The withdrawing of emotional support has been kind of slow and gradual due to her involvement with a really horrible man after my FIL's death. Her telling me that she no longer wanted to pay for my T was sudden and out of the blue. I am grateful, truly and she totally has the right not to pay for anything she chooses not to. I just wish the whole thing had been a little ... I don't know. I hate surprises. I was surprised by the suddenness of her not wanting to pay. Surprised by the pain of getting smacked in the face with the realization that I REALLY AND TRULY am JUST a client to my T. I generally keep a better grip on my emotions and more awareness of the probability of losing things I care about or being hurt by people. Unexpected, surprising, unanticipated things just HURT so much more for me.