In your first post, you mentioned you had concerns about 'delusional thinking'. To be honest, from an outside perspective, it looks like you've gone back into that world and are leaving this one behind again. I say that with the deepest sympathy, and not to attack you in any way. I know what that can be like. I've lived a lot of my life with such delusional thoughts and I know completely how easy it is to fall back into it without the correct support network around you. It's not only easy, but most of the time it can be preferable to the real world.

I mean really, who would pick a world where you have to deal with medical appointments, drugs, therapy, labels of illness? Why wouldn't you go back to the world where things are fun and light hearted and you have awesome powers that nobody else has?

What you describe sounds like some form of dissociation/magical thinking/psychosis. I know from experience that whilst you're in that state of mind, you're unlikely to ever believe any view point on the matter which counters your own. There are always basis in 'fact' that we can draw on to fuel our inner worlds, to give them life when everybody around us claims they aren't real.

Sometimes however, even whilst in that state, something can happen which is in glaring opposition to our beliefs of reality. The test which nowheretohide has suggested for example. If you can't perform that test with 100% accuracy over many attempts, then it would draw your beliefs of your reality into question. That can be an extremely difficult experience. I know that when the walls of my other world started to come crashing down, I really struggled, I started having very dark thoughts about ending everything so I didn't have to face the truth or reality. Even now, after a year of therapy on the matter and pills to help manage it, I still have that underlying urge to just stop fighting it and go back to it. Though that wouldn't be living, it'd just be ignoring the fact that I need help.

I really hope you understand that this post isn't meant as an attack on your beliefs, it's intended as a supporting post to show that you're not alone in this. Many of us on these forums have dealt with similar problems, that's why we're here. But the first step to getting help, is admitting that you need it. You managed that in your first post here, but since then you seem to have slipped back into the thought that you don't need help because there's nothing wrong.