I punched some pillows and screamed into my mattress. It has helped me a little with the tenseness in my body. Thank you for that suggestion.
Now I feel I am just left with a quiet anger and I might be able to handle that.
Oh I just don't get people sometimes!
It seems because I am not a broken mess on the outside and because I am nice to people and have empathy, it invites a judgment that is just too painful. When somebody questions that my past was "really that bad" because I seem "too emotionally healthy" wow, that hits me like a truck! All the work put into becoming who I am now, all the lessons I had to learn - that is part of my story too. And a judgment like that can destroy all the confidence I had to painfully acquire in a second.
I now know why I am so angry...

And now, like Solepa and Hazelgirl said, this quiet anger I can definitely let stay.

Thank you!
Amelia