Hi, aeloch24, and welcome to Psych Central! Please, dear one, don't stress out so much about being here. We are here to be supportive. I think most of us worry a bit from time to time about how we are coming across. But we know that each of us is likely to be having some struggles--for example, depression or an acute episode of some kind, and we try to take that into account. Many of us know what it's like to walk in shoes like yours.

I reconciled myself over three years ago that I needed to be on a site such as this one. We all need folks to support us, and many of us don't get that in real life. Here we can be ourselves, as long as we are decent to other people. I know what it's like to be suicidal. You are wise to reach out. Please don't be mad at yourself! On the other hand, I think you should feel good about yourself for doing self-care. We are glad you are here.

We are generally a supplement to therapy. We can't really take the place of it in any official way. But some members are here because they can't afford therapy. As Kaliope said, it might be good if you could see a therapist in real life, if you aren't already. I see one and I find it very helpful.

You might want to relax by playing some games, getting involved in Social Chat, or something else not so intense. Just a thought. Do what you feel comfortable with and don't push yourself too much if it is upsetting you.

As you can see, I am a moderator and a liaison. I am one of the members who tries to help folks navigate their way around here. So, feel free to contact me or another moderator or liaison if you have questions or concerns. Okay? Just click on the names you see in colors. Such as green! That will send you to a profile page of one of us and you can leave private messages.

I am so glad you shared your feelings. We don't want to make your life worse. We want to help! Okay?