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Originally Posted by AmysJourney
I punched some pillows and screamed into my mattress. It has helped me a little with the tenseness in my body. Thank you for that suggestion.
Now I feel I am just left with a quiet anger and I might be able to handle that.
Oh I just don't get people sometimes!
It seems because I am not a broken mess on the outside and because I am nice to people and have empathy, it invites a judgment that is just too painful. When somebody questions that my past was "really that bad" because I seem "too emotionally healthy" wow, that hits me like a truck! All the work put into becoming who I am now, all the lessons I had to learn - that is part of my story too. And a judgment like that can destroy all the confidence I had to painfully acquire in a second.
I now know why I am so angry...
And now, like Solepa and Hazelgirl said, this quiet anger I can definitely let stay.
Thank you!
Amelia
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Why not introduce cynicism? Why is judgment, your burden?
I embrace, anger when it flows into my veins. I have various sporting equipment available. Soccer balls, to kick. Volleyballs to spike. Yoga mat, to place myself into centering poses, be a tree, cobra, or upward bow. Quiet anger...i write. And pull together things that proactively shape my life.
Ever read, Facing the Fire?(John Lee).
Is it judgment, still? Or accusations of overreacting? Did you express to them, when you say this, I feel this.....add boundary. Follow through(like a bball shot).
Oh, about driving cars, angry...road rage is dangerous. I prefer loud music, pick a good stretch, controlled acceleration...
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