Hi Zinco: Well, as I think you may be aware... I'm kind-of in a similar place right now depression-wise. I got slammed yesterday morning. Then, yesterday evening & today, a large dose of anxiety climbed on as well. My hands have been shaking all day. I don't know where the sudden spike in depression came from yesterday. It just all of a sudden was here.

I'd have to say that, for me, having a large family gathering would throw me into a sea of depression & anxiety. I don't have any family except my wife. And I'm pretty much a solitary by nature. So just the thought of a family gathering gives me the willies.

It's SO difficult to know where these emotional spikes come from. And, at least for me, trying to figure this out for any given situation just seems to add to my distress.

I don't have a T either & no one IRL to talk to. So I just end up eating my misery. It sounds like you're doing the same. I hope you can find your way through to the other side of this episode. It sounds like, if you can just hang on, you'll be in pretty good shape again on the other side. I'd suggest to keep posting. Posting helps me. (Part of the reason I use all of the smilies is that fiddling with them, is sort-of calming similar to hair-pulling or skin picking (both of which I also do.)