So now I'm on Zoloft, the doctor wants me on 100 but I'm only taking 50. I'm working with my therapist. My paranoia is still there a little but I have been leaving the house and I'm actually starting to communicate with people. Maybe it was the isolation that really screwed me up. I feel like I have more energy, but I also am learning how my moods change. So I'm def bi polar and I guess my main worry is the delusion not coming back. I always talk to myself so its never me hearing things or seeing things. All I want to do is wait and see if it could of been the alcohol. I have been going to stores and have been feeling fine. Sometimes I have to take a xanax but I'm OK with that. I know its gonna get harder but I think I can beat it. Ii have set little goals for myself and so far I've achieved all of them. I'm praying that the Zoloft is good and won't send me into a delusion. Everyday is different so I keep a journal. SSO far no delusion or psychosis, just paranoia. That's the only symptom that's giving me problems. I hope I'm getting better and not worse. I'm sure working with a therapist things will get better. I have my fingers crossed. Thank you for all the support.