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Originally Posted by nak0604
Yeah they are the same, im used to getting hugs from her every time i see her too and i guess its just really hard for me to see her leave for the summer. We've spend so much time together its crazy haha makes me sad just thinking about it that shes leaving the state. I just dont know why this is affecting me emotionally so much more then when she left to go to Spain for a couple of years. We skyped from time to time during that period when she was out of the country. I wasnt so emotionally broken then, but now im just a wreck. I guess its because i have feelings for her more now.
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Hi nak, sounds like you're a lot closer to her this time around, that closeness needn't go away though even if you're not together.
Perhaps agree before she goes when you'll be in contact e.g. we'll skype every Tuesday and Friday......? then at least you've got something to hold on to, there'll still be that connection there. And perhaps make the most of the time that you are in contact? You might want to write down things you've been doing that you want to talk to her about/tell her when you do get in touch. And you know if you're not facebooking (sharing photos) then you can still be sending each other photos, making a bit more of a connection?
And, hey, maybe write down some of your feelings. They don't have to be for anyone else but you, but it might help just to "let them out".
And you know just keep in mind what Maddie would want for you e.g. for you to be slowly meeting people? For you to be trying to enjoy some of the things you're doing? For you trying to do your best whatever major you do? And try to use that to give you a bit of strength. I'm sure she'd see it as there's so much more out there for you, right?? So maybe allow yourself to feel/experience that over time?
So she won't be "gone", in fact I'm sure that
whatever happens she's going to have a place in your heart, it's just time to focus on you a bit more now. And you
deserve that for yourself!!
Alison
