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A few months ago pdoc asked me how I was doing. I told him I'd quote a lyric from a song from when I was a teen (am I dating myself? lol). I replied "I have become comfortably numb" to which he responded he was worried about that.
I'm back to being comfortably numb a lot lately. It's like I feel no joy. I don't cry. I don't want to do anything. My "get up and go" got up and went. When something happens I usually would be bothered by I just ignore it. I'm just not caring about much.
Example of that is Easter. I always had to have my house spotless. Everything in it's place and clean whenever my mother was coming over as she is a clean freak. This Easter I didn't bother to hide the pots and pans I'd used (usually I shove them in the dishwasher to hide them so the kitchen looks tidy). They were strewn all over the counter and in the sink. Medications were left out on the counter which I usually put away. After the grandkids tore through their Easter baskets I did not vacuum up the Easter grass. I didn't even dust! I just didn't care.
I don't feel particularly depressed, just don't care anymore.
Anyone else get like that?
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