It's exhausting, second guessing everything I say both IRL and online..

I know I'm not a bad person. I don't hurt anyone intentionally. I've been hurt so many times when I've thought I was beginning to trust someone, or some place.. including therapy. It would take me years to trust a therapist after .... And they might turn on me after years anyway.

So much not to say. So tiring seeking refuge which is nowhere.