I know what it is like to be a good person and to constantly seem to have bad things happen over and over again. that is why I live in my own little agoraphobic world trusting no one and not having a life. it is safer that way. I am happy the best way I can be not letting anybody in. I enjoy my job helping others and then I go home and read and watch tv, go to the occasional paint class. content with the way things are. I keep myself safe.