the only things that makes me happy is baseball and music.i know some people that work at a baseball stadium.most of the times they are the only people that are nice to me.i feel like i can be myself around my buddies that work at the stadium.i have cried when baseball season ends and my depression and self esteem gets worse in the winters.i know it's not weather related though.because i use to live in places with good weather.it's because i never see the people i know at the baseball games during the winter.then i feel like they don't really like me.but feel sorry for me because i go to a lot of games alone.i have tried other hobbies and other places to hang out.but some hobbies i tried i did not enjoy at all.places i went to the people where kind of like cliques in high school.plus i got made fun of by people they see me alone at concerts etc.i had people i don't even know call me a loser to my face and then laugh at me