What does therapy leave you with? It spends so much time stripping away the layers, the defenses. It makes you look at life as it is, it makes you accept the life that was or wasn't. I can't stand the amount of loss I'm dealing with. I can't stand how sh.it my childhood was and that I lost it and can never get it back. I can't stand that I have to be responsible for making things ok for myself when I wasn't the one who f.ucked me up in the first place. So much loss.... I feel like I can't bear it sometimes.

Sometimes I wish I could go back to the life numbing depression when I was miserable but didn't know why, instead of being in this acute sense of awareness of everything, of all the loss, of all the heartbreak and of all the work still to be done. It's not fair.

Can someone please tell me what therapy replaces all this with? That there is a point to it all?