Im just going to start to figure this all out myself starting next week, when real therapy begins, and to tell you the truth, there is alot of layers to be peeled according to my t, which I feel will leave me raw.

She says it will feel worse before it gets better, for my life to heal, but sometimes I wonder if uncovering this can of worms was such a good thing, but, I couldnt stand feeling miserable anymore. You are right, its not our fault we are this way now, and have to go through this misery of fixing it.

logically we either get the help we deserve with some discomfort, or just stay numb forever, please dont give up.