Oh my God. I know exactly what this feels like. It is the shi.ttest feeling ever. It's like...there's no going back now. At least in the numb state, sometimes you could pretend everything was really ok. But now there is no plausible pretence to yourself anymore.
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Been trying hard not to get into trouble, but I
I got a war in my mind
~ Lana Del Rey
How many cares one loses when one decides not to be something but to be someone
~ Coco Chanel
One is not born, but rather becomes, a woman
~ Simone de Beauvoir
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