I'm sorry you are feeling so down, but it's always okay to vent here. Wish I had anything to say to help. I still have my parents but I now worry that I will lose them very soon. Watching them go downhill fast. I hope you at least get to see your kids have done well. Mine could be in a lot better position.. Sorry your job is stressful, and about the arthritis. I've had that drug recently, a few months or more ago. Just my experience only, but it did make me very exhausted. I think it would get better in time. I hope the medication gives you a lift soon. Maybe the anxiety med, temporarily, would help you to sleep better and wake up with more energy?
Myself, I have not many to vent to either, life is difficult when there's no one close to tell your feelings to. Thankful for this place though to come to though