"Comfortably numb"---I like that! It describes how I've felt since I went on Zyprexa full-time. I've been through all kinds of hell at work these past few weeks, and my med regimen is the only reason I am able to sit there and take nonstop criticism in a professional manner. Used to be all I could do was run into the bathroom and cry after it was over. Now I'm like, "Oh well, it is what it is---I'm doing the very best I can and if it's not good enough, it's not for lack of trying."

I can also get lost on a backcountry road without freaking out now. That's another huge change for me. I was a bundle of bipolar hot mess before the last couple of med changes, and if not being one means I'm "numb", I'm perfectly happy being numb.