i have sexual issues and my legs clam up when my bf and i have sex. when i was a teen, a guy i met offline whom i had a high attraction to took my virginity never even asked me if i wanted to have sex just assumed. later on, the problems started with other guys who would ram it in it was just nothing but yelling telling them that hurts! it was argument after argument blaming me. even fingering was an issue for me not so much now and i am 28.

my legs would clam up due to objects coming near me down there. a gyno i used to have told me to see a sex therapist really?!? who has money for that? i am looking for something that i can do on my own. having guys as friends in the past was a disaster for me they always had racist ideologies in the closet until i found out later. my bf was my best friend when we first met before we started dating the only one! i could be friends with a gay guy no problem but not a str8 guy there seems to be some kind of 'you owe me' attitude