so I have carried around the puzzle piece about something bad happening in the forest all my life, the nightmares. knowing it happened to my sister as well. figuring we were molested. she told me years ago it was uncovered during hypnosis but she didn't have the details. I went as far as to get a release for her medical records but the dr. didn't disclose the details in the notes. I started with a new therapist recently. it was revealed I am DID. my others are a bit chatty and are showing me I was molested but it was looking like my father did it. it was so abusive in many other ways. I had to write him to tell him I was sending him some money for my now dead sisters jewelry. I figured what the heck, I would ask him if he knew of anything bad happening to me and my sister in the woods. he called me and told me of my sisters deathbed confession that he has been keeping secret for three years now. she had remembered the details of the molestation working with another therapist and shared it with him. she told him it was my older brother who molested us. now I just sit here and chain smoke not certain what to do with this information. my brother would only deny it. its not like I can cut him out of my life, I don't have anything to do with him anyway. I guess I just have the validation.
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