Ummmm, YOU don't deserve to be with him???? Seems more the other way around to me! He's keeping a more than 5 year old computer with video and pics of ex and other women and YOU can't be trusted??? Just a junk drawer that needs cleaning??? well that's a good one!
Come on now, get a grip, and then get out of this relationship. You deserve better than this man, but before you get into another relationship, first take some time for YOU and figure out why you keep choosing the wrong type of man. Don't mean to sound harsh, I just hope you find your way OUT of this situation and into the great life you so deserve.