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Originally Posted by casey64
My last manic episode was almost 6 months long, with the last 30 days in psychosis which landed me, once again, back in the hospital. I have relocated with my boyfriend of 9 years. Since my hospitalization, I have fallen in to deep depression with more anxiety than I have ever had to deal with. My family is done with me, aside from my mom. My children want me at a distance, but I guess I can't blame them, as every episode seems to affect them more and more. Even worse, my boyfriend really doesn't know what to do about my symptoms and even told me that had I not been stabilized, he was going to just bail. He wants me better, he just doesn't know what to do. I am under a doctor's care and have been a medication guinea pig since last Xmas. I am tired of fighting this illness and becoming withdrawn and have lost interest in everything and I just don't feel like climbing this hill anymore
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Just keep coming here for support. You are able to talk about it and that's a step in the right direction. You still have people you love that love you back. You are not totally alone. This is a battle for us all, everyday of our lives and it's never going to go away. But it doesn't have to be a burden. Believe it or not, this thing that often feels like a monster chewing on our brain can be tamed and sometimes turned into something positive.
Please PM me. Talk, rant, rave-it's okay. I promise to listen and I have probably been there myself. You are not alone. I hear you and understand your pain as only another BP could. Please come visit-I look forward to being your friend.
