I'm sorry you are feeling so crummy. There really is a light at the end of the tunnel. You are probably experiencing the hardest part right now, or one of them, and those usually feel never ending. I think it's the same as any other healing process. I once had surgery and was in a tremendous amount of pain...highly medicated and would still wake up screaming because I couldn't tolerate it. It seemed I would feel that way forever and I could not remember what it felt like to not be in pain. It did get better though. Hang in there.