Why is it that everyday feels worse than the last one??? Im sorry, i just need to vent....... I see NOTHING getting better, the future, HA! yeah OK, its gonne be just like it is now. I CAN"T take this anymore! I completely forgot what it is to be "normal" or "happy". Everything is dark to me and it always feels like everyone including my family, is against me. I am SOOOOOOO sick of trying to please EVERYONE, when I dont even know myself anymore because of Depression. Ah yes, that is me now. I feel I am a worthless, low life loser who dosent even deserve to be here.Evryone keeps saying to "keep pushing" and that "I'll get somewhere soon", Yeah right. Don't I have to want it??? I have been "pushing" for so long now and everything gets worse. I am to the point where I just want to run away, and keep running and NEVER stop. I wish I could run from myself, I hate me. Im not good for anyone. Honestly, im really hoping that something will happen to me soon, so I dont have to deal with this constant pain anymore.