I feel dumb for even posting this but here goes nothing. Since I haven't been able to find a therapist that I've clicked with, I've been managing whatever symptoms I have on my own. I've done a bit of self care here and there (and it has helped a bit) but the one thing I have such trouble with is starting and keeping a diary. I know it would help tremendously to just write down what I'm feeling but I don't know, I just feel foolish. I fear that, as an adult, the act of keeping a diary is immature and self indulgent. I know that's not true but I have some long standing issues (guilt, embarrassment) with expressing how I feel. How can I stop thinking and feeling this way? Are there any adults out there that keep a diary and if so, does it help?

If anyone has any advice or words of wisdom, I would greatly appreciate it.