Zinco, I am sorry that you are feling bad but maybe it is jst a glitch? You said that you have spent time over the weekend with your family. I know we all do it, measure ourselves againt others especially our family. Maybe that could be weighing you down. We cant compare ourselves as it can be soul destroying and although I know you love tham as have beeen very supportive, you still see yourself as a black sheep. That is so not true. You can always pm me anytime you like. I understand its not the same but might help a little. Take care of yourself.