Well it is so hard because it is our best friend. It is really hard to give up your best friend even though your best friend is killing you. Not a healthy relationship really when it is trying to kill you on the one hand and then telling you how great things will be on the other.

The scariest thought I ever had was imagining going my whole life without alcohol. Weed wasn't even on the table. I thought I would never give that up. The hard drugs I figured I could live without as long as I had my alcohol. Thats why we do it one day at a time because it is just to overwhelming to think about the whole thing. And we can't do it alone.

You don't have to say a word. Just go sit in the corner and listen. If you say you are new than people are going to focus on you and welcome you. Maybe that is what you need to feel accepted. I guarantee you will be accepted. It is very scary. Just take the first step. Baby steps. Just go sit and listen......chances are you will hear something. I have never been to a meeting where I didn't walk out feeling a little better.