I seem to be coming out of it and returning to my moderate to mildly depressed self which is my norm. I have had to learn to live with that. I can at least function although I get really tired of forcing myself to do things. I would much rather want to do things. I am back on the upward swing.

I have to apologize to my friend. I have been talking to her on private message on facebook and she has been very helpful. And sorting things out on the forum is really helpful.

I learned in AA along time ago that family is great for support if you have it but you can't rely on them to be your primary support. It is not fair to them. They are too wrapped up in it emotionally and besides they can't really understand unless they have it. My sibs are just uncomfortable about it and don't know what to say. My parents have been great but it is not fair to burden them all the time.

I guess we really have to get past this comparing thing. The reality is that depression is a very lonely debilitating disease. Our cross to bear.