(((((((((((((((sweet poison girl))))))))))))))))) There is no better or worse issues. There is just pain. Pain that you are having a hard time coping with. I am sorry that you have gone through so much and not recied the support you needed.

Maybe asking for help here will help you learn how to do the same IRL? You have taken the first step and you have posted. Awesome. I hope you can continue to do so.

Welcome to PC!