Hi Secretwhisper: I'm so sorry you're still feeling so down... wish there was something I could say. Just know that you are in my thoughts.

What I experience, with regard to this is: I don't have difficulty talking. But I seem to be unable to be honest. Going into my appointments with my , I'll have every intention of being forthright with regard to how I'm doing. But once I get in there, I slap the old smile on my face & proceed to make everything sound at least satisfactory if not downright sunny I just don't seem to be able to do anything else. It can be maddening!