Why is the question. First let me start by thanking you for your post and for not making me feel like more of a jerk than I am (I KNOW I WAS WRONG).

I guess I was just trying to have a real family. He is funny and wonderful when things are OK. I have a son with him and I love him. I think that's what it boils down to.

I'm 33 and he's 52. It's a messed up situation and I know that I should move on.