Pm'd the bulk of my thoughts... but to reiterate one small point:

I find the rare glimpse of a thread you've created before editing with a delete to be eye opening and often times, issues I can relate to and invaluable for their insight.

I wish you would stop being concerned with the impact they might have to whoever you are worried about here... and just be yourself... be open and let us chat with you

I have yet to see one that implicates the actions of others in any specific way... and if one should do a 'oh my god!'... then perhaps they are reading too deep... making it their baggage. That's their issue... not yours. Please don't shy away from imparting your experiences