I started this thread several month ago. I tend not to visit this site to often as I get impatient and disinterested and lose focus.I am wondering what to do I struggle with daily tasks other than getting to work. I procrastinate a lot I don't know why? I feel is because I am drained of energy and motivation. My place is a mess and I struggle to keep it tidy I mean basic cleanliness. Long ago (1 year almost) I was almost evicted from my apartment (I live elsewhere now) for not maintaining the standard cleanliness during an inspection.
I tried to rush to clean get motivated but I just didn't care. I find I don't care about things when I should things I used to be concerned about. My health my well being I neglect. I have lists of many projects and activities and goals but when I want to do them I just can't , I stop having desire. If I try it's like forcing ones self to go on despite the inevitable despair. I will just become sidetrack and withdrawn.