I just know how proud your mom would be of you getting on with your life. It is so very difficult to move on without your mom being there. You can still talk to her. I still talk to my mom and she has passed this 12 years. It does get easier in a way that you learn to deal with it better. The best way to remember your mom is to do the best that you can for yourself, afterall that is what she would have wanted. Best wishes..