hey guys...
i'm posting here because for the first time in a while, i have no idea how to feel. i know that i used to have mild to moderate depression in high school, which i attributed to my home life/recent deaths in the family. i thought that moving away for college would fix my problems and make me happy, but lately i've been realizing that its NOT my surrounding that make me so sad, it's me. i don't know what to do, my friends all say that i'm getting more irritable/pessimistic/mean by the day, and i just keep feeling like i have NOONE who truly needs me. i know that i would never commit suicide, i'm just sick of feeling worthless all the time. this weekend is so stressful, that for the first time ever i actually followed through with cutting myself. i hate to say it, but it felt sooo good and i felt so much more relaxed and in control. i'm not expecting anything from venting here...i guess i just need to let out some emotion...