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Apr 24, 2014, 03:50 PM
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Member Since: Mar 2014
Location: USA
Posts: 611
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Continuing Day #1:
Oh, half the day I managed the happy blissful day routine. And then I collapsed in immense pain, which made me throw up, and now I feel pissed! Oh I am so frustrated that I can't just do what I want right now and go where I want and eat what I want!! Yes, the pain makes me frustrated and irritated and right now I wish I could shout at everyone! My therapist says I can shout at her - but how do I shout at someone who has blue puppy eyes and holds my hand and looks so sad?? I wish she would say something very insensible so I have a reason to shout at her  I don't know if I would, but well - I'd like the opportunity.
Good that you can't hear me right now. This all would sound very pouting and rebellious and frustrated right now.
I am hesitantly going to force myself out into the sunshine now and although I don't want to, will probably smile and I will hope not to be in this winy miserable mood for too long. But hey, it's real and I guess I am sharing the good and the bad.
Amelia
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Mahatma Ghandi
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