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Originally Posted by AmysJourney
And I kept thinking, " For what? For not being more messed up? For being nice?" It's really the last thing I need right now. So I thought for a moment that keeping more to myself would be a safer option.
She said: "Do the opposite, use the unique voice you have been given to make yourself heard. You are not a child any more, nobody has power over you any more. Nobody can make you less. So use your voice, reach out to people and connect with your world as much as you can"
That's when she suggested the daily letter idea.
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Your voice reached out to me and connected with me. It was so apt for me today and really what I needed to hear. So thank you! Someone I trusted told me they thought I was lying to them (about something) today and it has hurt me a lot but also made me furious at them. I was thinking the same thing - unless I look how they want/feel I should, no one listens or believe me and it hurts me to be me so maybe I should hide away again. This is such a reminder of the past (and probably why I am so upset). Your therapist sounds fantastic and wise. I feel as though through you she spoke to me too
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Originally Posted by AmysJourney
I wish she would say something very insensible so I have a reason to shout at her  I don't know if I would, but well - I'd like the opportunity.
Good that you can't hear me right now. This all would sound very pouting and rebellious and frustrated right now.
I am hesitantly going to force myself out into the sunshine now and although I don't want to, will probably smile and I will hope not to be in this winy miserable mood for too long. But hey, it's real and I guess I am sharing the good and the bad. |
I feel for you. But you sound strong despite the horrific pain...and I think it is okay to pout and be rebellious every now and then. It makes you dynamic!
Thanks for sharing. Best of luck forcing yourself outside.
Take care of yourself.