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Originally Posted by zinco14532323
Its ok to break down crying. Its ok to be depressed.
I don't like dealing with all this stuff and more either. I don't know what choice I have, it is the hand life dealt me. It is not fair, life sucks.
When I was in 7th grade and started having depressions neither my parents or I had a clue. I would come home with bad grades and I would get punished. That was the last thing I needed. I needed help. It was right about then I started self medicating with drugs and alcohol. This went on for 17 years before I finally reached out for help. It was pretty ugly by this point. I was 32.
Life is a WE game. I can't do it alone, it is too much. If my car breaks down I ask for help or bring it to a mechanic, I can't fix it. If I break my arm I go to a doctor to let him fix it, I can't fix it. When I had to get clean and sober I went to AA, I couldn't fix it. If there is something wrong with my head I go to the head doctors so we can figure out how to fix it. I can't but WE can.
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My depression was really strong today. I want to cry, but I never do. I just want to know why I had to deal with all of this. I am getting more, & more into a depressed state,& it isn't getting better. It is just getting worse.
I have horrible grades. Three D's, & 2 C's. I want to good, but I am unmotivated, I don't care(I want to), have no motivation, I use to have a lot of motivation, I don't anymore. My mom is getting angry, & my teachers are. I do not know how my teacher will react if they knew I had depression. What will even happen if they know, & how they react?