((((((((((((((((Christina)))))))))))))))))

I'm sorry that you are finding this so difficult ... I can understand though how you don't want to become too attached to him as he is leaving soon. But as hard as it is, if you can just focus on being in the present when you are with him, and trying to concentrate less on how much time the two of you have together. How long is he going away for? Like is he coming back after a while?

And try not to beat yourself up about how he is going about meetings with you ... no one can ever know exactly whats going on inside anyone's head. And he's already TRAINED in this profession so it can only be expected that he knows things that you don't know yet, or are in the process of learning. I know that i often do that myself, but just give it some time. I hope that i'm making some sense...

Thinking of you ...
Jacq